I remember when we were first learning about our Personal Pivotal Needs (PPN’s) and Mark said not to worry too much about the 2 that you pick because through the course you will have touched all of them.
Legacy/ Spiritual Growth/ Liberty/ Helping Others/ Recognition for Creative Expression/ Truth-True Health
The 2 that I intuitively picked that I felt I needed the most was Liberty and Recognition for Creative Expression. Like I did express in a past blog, Liberty, was found on a deeper level than my initial response to the word.
I took Liberty as something I needed to conquer externally when what happened was that 1st I needed to find Liberty internally. And I can boldly say I have freed myself from my mental chains.
Recognition for Creative Expression started instantly to come to me with such strong love and support from all of you whom have graciously read, commented, and praised me for my writings with this blog. I have felt so filled, seen, and heard by the most generous supportive audience and I am forever indebted and grateful that you took the time to send me love and support. I realized that I stopped creating years ago because I just felt like “What was the point, no one will see or care about it anyway.” And now I have poured out my soul and the feedback has made me open back up and continually want to share myself with the world.
Spiritual Growth also laid a bit dormant in me as around the time I stopped creating I also stopped connecting with God and the Universe. I have always been a very spiritual person. And over a few beatings and hardships I endured on life’s path I closed myself off and became numb. The daily sits really helped with my connection and listening to my higher self and God. I have started attracting more spiritual people again and putting myself in more spiritual situations. My energy is vibrating on a higher lever and the lower level energy around me is falling away. My connection to spirit is more tangible than ever before. And I have created a space for myself that I can tune into now at any time to realign or receive guidance.
Autonomy came to me in the form of freedom in standing up for myself and what I truly want out of this life, regardless of the influence from society of what I can or cannot do. The compass has definitely given us the tool to throw the clock against the wall, give the people whom have said “You Can’t!” the finger and keep moving forward. I now fully trust my inner guidance and myself even when I go against the grain. I was a path maker all through my youth, then I let the outside voices start to influence my thoughts and actions. I think for myself and I act upon what I know is right for my life.
As the past few weeks has unfolded and my revisions of my DMP start to form I see that the changes that are taking place are leading me in Helping Others. This past holiday season I gave more than I ever have to charities and people in need even when I came to a point where I almost did not even have enough to pay rent. By being a part of the Pay-It-Forward Scholarship I am helping others to be able to better/save their own lives in the way this course has saved me. With the strengthening of my spirituality I now see where I want to blend helping others find their spirituality in whatever path it may lead them.
Truth has come to me by coming to maturity in being fully honest with my actions, my desires, and myself. True Health really took over the past 2 weeks. I finally became honest with myself that my body was not operating in perfect harmony and I needed to take any steps I could to feel better. I started seeing a Chinese Herbalist and an Acupuncturist to get what had become so unbalanced from the years of negative self-talk and over indulgence of toxic substances. In 2 weeks of being on a strict diet, taking specialty formulated Chinese herbal teas, and see the acupuncturist 2 times a week I have never felt more balance and more clear. Even after all the years that I have struggled to quit drinking coffee I have finally managed to let it go. All the negative addictions in the mind and in the body no longer have control and I am at peace.
As I have been the student in this life I am ready to become the teacher and my Legacy will prevail as I have the knowledge, the wisdom, and the hands on experience to guide others back to the light. PEACE.