I can see clearly now that the rain is gone. It has all become clear. The veil has been lifted!
This week took a turn and I emerged from the dark. I just have to tell each and every one of you that, all the comments and likes on my last blog post really filled my heart. I am so inspired by this community we have thrown ourselves into. It was such a weight lifted off of my shoulders that I could be raw and truthful- I just needed to release and get out all that I was feeling- and you were all there holding my hand. I feel so blessed to be a part of a group and have other people who are committed to change. It is so comforting to know that we are all going through this deconstruction and reconstruction together. I knew the process was going to be challenging. I am sure more will bring itself to the surface as we keep moving forward, but I have to say this is all going deeper than I ever imagined. This course came to me truly by divine timing and it is just the holistic prescription I needed to make these ultimate changes.
I felt the universal love and support so strongly when my angels showed up and gave me such a blatant sign of LOVE last Friday that every piece of resistance shifted in me over the weekend. Monday morning I truly was anew. Even one of my very close and dear friends called me yesterday and she said, “I just want to tell you that I have seen the biggest change in you and talking to you is different. You are different. And I realized that I am really enjoying this newfound you. Your positivity is contagious!”
My dreams for the first time in a very long time seem obtainable. The daily exercises and my DMP are building such confidence in me that I can trust that all of the forces will continue to move me in the right direction. This past week I have already seen the changes and the forces at work. When I moved back to Los Angeles 3 years ago I was in my early 30’s and it started wearing on me that in Tinsel Town time, especially for women, is not on our side. So each passing year my spirit dimmed and I started walking a path of life that did not even come close to my purpose. Then Mark introduced the compass and that has become my greatest companion, because I will forge my dreams in direction, no longer in time. I will continue to go after everything I want in life no matter how long it takes me to get them. Not my old-self, society, or the restrictions of Hollywood can stop me from achieving my dreams!
This week with the 7-day mental diet I also found that my mind calmed a bit. The negativity took over me like Noxious Weed and there was a point before this course I did not even know if I was every going to be happy again. To my surprise all of the repetition of exercises has receded these damaging thoughts and I am excited again for what the future has in store.
I am loving the concept of befriending the future self. Wow, is that an important one or what?! No wonder why we can destroy our lives so easily in the moment, because we cannot see or we do not know the person we are needing to take care of in the future. I was just reminded of Matthew McConaughey’s 2014 Oscar speech, where he said; there are 3 things that he needs every day. 1. Someone to look up to, which for him is God. 2. Someone to look forward to, whom he pays tribute to as his family. 3. Someone to chase. Matthew describes the person that he chases is his “Hero” and that hero is himself in 10 years and every 10 years he begins to chase himself 10 years from that point. I heard that speech and I thought that was an interesting concept. While others around me and the media at that time thought what he was said was so stupid, I thought differently. What he said stuck with me and I knew there was something to that, but I couldn’t quite put my finger on it. Then today as I am writing this blog I got it! He has made his future self his hero, he more than just befriended that part of himself, he has idolized it and everything he does in his life is to push himself towards his hero self and give that self the most amazing life possible. Being that I have never had a Hero myself I am going to take this concept and I am going to make my future self my Hero! PEACE.